Wednesday, November 5, 2008


were the most important ones I had ever witnessed in myself writing to her and to think that I never knew how they would go or if I would ever find them, but I wore them proudly like a scar and let them all shine brightly though something still felt missing. 

I reached and reached and grabbed onto them tightly and they said this to myself: This year has been very magical. The universe spoke to me almost every single day in almost every way but I feel that here my time is done. I set out to learn as much as I could about myself and I feel that has happened. It brought me deeply into a place I had never been before. 

I may have been there when I was a little boy. If we would call it anything we would call it the remembering. Thank you very much for all your kind words, they mean the world to me. I hope you know that and all of the experiences we have shared now hold a deeper meaning to me that was not at that time understood. So in any moments of your quiet desperation that you may experience someday in this life or any other life. 

As we know it all seems to come like a sickness. Just know that somewhere out there you are still with me. All of those words we built together have grown into the soil and have rooted into the big tree that I am. You are truly blessed. Enjoy this life to the fullest. Live each day like it was your last day here. This is all I have to say now. 

Remember to take a few moments every now and again to thank yourself, you went through hell so you could find your heaven.